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Quarter life crisis…

• feels like you’re living in regret.  It is like the mistakes of your past, no matter how long ago they were committed, are finally creeping up on you, and you feel as if you are now forced to make up for those mistakes.
• feels like you’re the only person right smack in the mid twenties.  You look around when you’re doing groceries or attending church or window shopping, and you feel left out, because being twenty five or almost twenty five feels like the most abnormal, wrong thing in the world.
• is an uncomfortable stretch.  Since you’re right smack in the middle, your status is confusing.  You’re young and free, and at the same time old and left behind.
• mostly feels like being old and left behind.  You still want to do those things you wrote in your 21st birthday bucket list, but without the refreshing, idealistic, conquer-the-world air you used to exude.  Because you know that once you decide to focus on completing that 21st birthday bucket list, the important things in life — career, financial stability, societal identity, finding a spouse — will most likely pass you by.
• makes one feel like they’ve got all the time in the world.  At the same time though, they also feel as if there’s just not enough of it.
• feels like living in absolute, total confusion.  You may have a job or taking advanced studies or even married with a kid and a dog, but there are fork roads above crossroads above detours above road blocks.  Even though you have somehow found your place in this world, it still feels as if you need to do more.  There is no clear-cut direction, no map to guide you.  On top of that, your wheels are starting to deflate.
• is when you start comparing yourself to others in a very unhealthy way.  It is way beyond the insecurities you experienced when acne started invading your face, or when you were 23 and feeling like an absolute leech, still depending on your parents for food and shelter.  It is when you start really seeing through the eyes of a green monster, asking questions like, “Why is that bitch already a manager?” or “Why is that jerk of an ex-boyfriend married with 2.5 kids?”, and always ending each question with, “…and I’m not?“
• is something that I wish to get over as soon as I can.